YOU ARE ENOUGH

We all have a longing for a father’s. Some of us are devastated by father wounds. A void is left inside us and we are not able to fill it. We suffer from lack of confidence. That moment you really have to be strong and stand out but then the fear of what people say or think about you draws you back. The lack of trust especially with the male figures around us. Also attracting people who mirror back your lack of trust to you. Living a vulnerable life where you are learning to trust every day.

Attracting unavailable people due to an emotional absence from your father. Relationships burning out after a while and then you start to feel afraid to be by yourself and fear of being left. The many times your father was hard on you and you felt not “good enough”. Feeling like you always want more and never fully satisfied with what you have.

You grow to think you are one of those humans too hard to love because the pursuit of love has brought you nothing but pain. You just want to feel nothing and so you numb yourself by hiding your heart behind the space you’ve created out of disappointment. Those days you wished he was there to give you a hug and tell you all will be alright.

You try to piece yourself together at the same time deserving a love that helps you grow. The love that feels like the one you’ve always been capable of providing. You apologize for apologizing so often. You apologize for not being “good enough” because you never got that from him. You almost made sorry sound like a greeting. You labeled yourself a disaster because no one told you that you are more than that tsunami in your heart.

The moment you open up to him about some information concerning your life with some little faith that he’ll give it a listening ear. He then bitches at you for it like he’s guaranteed that you’ll never tell anything to him again. You grow up with your greatest fear being the fear of rejection.

I am no exception, but………

Today I tell myself that I am good enough. I do enough and I have enough. I just let go and live in this moment. I am full of sparkle and love. I make mistakes but I own them and learn from them. I am a precious commodity and not a paper plate to be crumpled up and disposed. I am not an object to be neglected, abused or unappreciated. I am a human to be highly valued and I’m a lasting treasure. I genuinely want to make the world a better place.

I am walking contradiction. I am brave enough to be myself. There is greater love that I am yet to find. There are experiences that are far beyond my imagination. Life is waiting for me and am setting aside expectations to explore it all.

I am not afraid to heal just because I sometimes feel that my identity is centered around the trauma I’ve experienced. I am guarding my heart and making room for all goodness, I mean some flowers are meant to bloom later. I am aware of how my childhood has affected me and I do not want to bleed in the future. I am putting up all the effort to heal. I know that my kids are going to be filled with such beautiful self-loving babies.

“Sometimes you need to forget how you feel and think of what you deserve.”

“Sometimes you need to forget how you feel and think of what you deserve.” SEE YOURSELF POWERFUL